UPDATE UPDATE

it's been so loooooonnngggg since i last blogged. i was so busy as i like telling myself. anyway, i am practically done editing the pictures that piled on my hard drive. so, what's up with me lately?!?

1. boracay trip was a blast. i must admit i had fun. i went fire dancing in hawaiian barbeque... that was really neat.

2. i already passed the international licensure exam i was preparing for. that's a weight off the shoulder.

3. i got rid of some sh*tty friends... like i always say, i dont mind losing 20 friends at once, i have more than you could imagine.. hahahahaha. trifling people... lol

4. i will be conducting photo editing workshops with some friends... i and some friends will be putting up a studio very soon so for the meantime, we'll be focusing on holding out photo editing tutorials first. would you like to join?

5. i just turned 26 just 2 days back.. had a blast celebrating with good friends... booze, food, and a whole lot of conversations... hahahahahaha

6. i finally have a copy of my all time favorite film "BLOOD IN, BLOOD OUT." can't wait to watch it with the VATOS LOCOS.... i'm pretty sure i'll get the chicano high again for a month....

7. i'm currently reading on "hannibal rising"  by thomas harris. im stuck on chapter 18.. hahahaha...

8. my friends got inked last night... im such a loser for not getting one.. hahahaha....

9. i still have no plans for the coming holy week...

10. im planning on enrolling in Fashion Institue of the Philippines and take Fashion Photography classes... i'm still deciding on it....

11. i got rid of my curls, my hair is getting long. i am doning the Jesus Christ look lately.. i haven't shaved my facial hair for weeks.. hahahaha.. just in time for the holy week...

12. i joined an international photo contest. i didn't win nor got short listed... i'm bitter about it. hahahahahaha...

13. im going crazy over taco bell's churros.. hahahaha....

14. break-ups and make-ups been staling the air lately... hahahahaha... sh*t happens.

15. im still deciding if i should go back to the states this coming april =/

that's basically it for me lately... i am telling myself to blog more often.... and oh, i just started on flickr. do check out my works at http://www.flickr.com/djcatch .

365 DAYS OF SH*T

over and over i feel the same thing.
i rise and as if time has turned a notch a faster, i lose track of it i suddenly fall.
over and over i see the same thing.
the sun standing proud and as i blink it bid farewell then darkness takes over.
over and over i hear the same thing.
tick-tock-tick-tock i try to run with my heartbeat yet the track seems never ending.
i am losing in this battle.
i am starting to feel weak.
i try to savor everything around me yet nothing seems to be appealing.
left i turned i ended screaming.
right i turned i ended crying.
i stay still on neutral ground i find myself frozen.
as i try to give meaning to all shit happening, i ended dying.

same shit, different day!

NEGOTIABLE AFFECTION

ive always wondered how it is to be a person with negotiable affection? being paid for "affection" if you know what im saying. since i am in search for anything that will shake things up a little, maybe i should try being an undercover male-for-hire. hahahaha.

what the fuck am i thinking? i need to sleep.

FUCK 2010

as much as id want to celebrate the new year, i just cant seem to find enough reasons to do so. i know that the coming of a new year is a fresh way to start anew but i just feel same old same old.

i usually plan a lot everytime a new year starts - new agendas, new travel plans, new goals, new things to buy, etc. as the new year approached, i just felt apathetic. more like passive and indifferent. it seemed that there is just nothing to look forward to this coming year.

i dont usually drink when i go to year-ender parties but this time was different. i went to every party i got invited to and got totally wasted. i must say i enjoy the feeling of being drunk. this was my way of bidding farewell to a great 2009 maybe. it's like breaking off with a girlfriend and then turning to alcohol for self satisfaction. im so headed for a big downfall.

could it be that im just getting older that my zest for life is starting to wane? or, could it be because im starting to stagnate once again? honestly, i am just bored. bored to the extent that i am desperately in need of something to shake things up a little. i need to be involved into something dangerous or illegal. hahaha. come to think of it, maybe i should start exploring once again. let the rebel in me get out of his cage once more. tsk tsk tsk. this is not good.

ac*d, h*shish, e*stacy, we*d, c*ke, hero*n = heaven

hahahah =)

TUMBLR

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TOKYO

im thinking of going to tokyo.

i just need a visa first.

HAIR

darn it! i miss my long permed hair!

why was i not born with curly hair?

PEOPLE WATCHING

one thing i enjoy doing is people watching. i like looking at people. i just love to observe and whirl with the thoughts that would run through my mind.

airports are my mecca for people watching. during my travels, i actually dont mind checking in way ahead of time so just i could people watch. i would just sit on one spot and watch people go by. i find it very enriching. i would ponder what country they are from or where they are headed next or perhaps why they are dressed a certain way or what their purpose for travel is.

*sitting in one corner

*people watching

by people watching i see all sorts of differences in culture - how liberal some people are and how conservative some people might get. one instance, as i was sitting on the floor in an airport in thailand, a group of caucausian girls boldly strip down in their undies, put on deodorant, and put on new set of clothes. they didn't seem to mind everybody else around them (good thing they didn't. lol). i so wanted to snap a photo but that would be just darn inappropriate. they seem to be in haste, probably late for check in. on the other hand, while i was lined up in border control, i saw a group of islam women (i pressumed) all covered in layers of black cloth from head to toe. if i am not mistaken, islam women are forbidden to show any skin. then i wondered how the border control officers would handle such a case. the border control officers are supposed to check identities and see if they match the photo in passports. i was very eager to find out but it was i next in queue so i never got in finding out how. crap.

sometimes i also wonder how language barriers are bridged. there was this one time when i saw a korean woman, probably my age, who seemed pretty lost in the airport. being the helpful person that i am (ehem), i approached her and asked her what seemed to be the problem. she just looked at me and said a phrase in korean that ended with the word "english." i got it, she doesn't speak english. no wonder she was having a hard time. all the signage in the airport are written either in english or in the country's native language. then she bowed down and left.

people watching is fun. just make sure you dont cross the line from just observing to being just rude.

RUNABOUT CURSE

once again, i found myself back in the runabout.

it's been a long while since i was back in it. it sucks. life has become boring again. before i had my recent trip i was doing okay. it seemed that i was on track with my life. i had important things to do. it seemed life had purpose. i had an agenda on hand and i was effin doing fine with it.

now, i feel lost again. when i got back, it seemed i lost track of everything. i dont do my studying anymore nor do i watch the usual tv series that i follow. all of a sudden, i feel like im doing the same routine i eagerly left behind a long time ago. i feel like i lost spontaneity.

i'd wake up at around 2 pm. i'd eat lunch then sleep again. i'd wake up at around 5 pm. i'd take a bath then i'd eat dinner. at 7 pm i'd come over to my friend's house. we'd then start to think of what we'd like to eat for the night (burger, cake, starbucks, chips, whatever we agree upon). i'd stay there till around 3 am then i'd go home. i'd take a shower, floss and brush my teeth, then go to bed. the next day, the same would transpire again. for cryin out loud, i don't even have time for my dog anymore. that's something unacceptable. this has been constantly happening since saturday. i'm being stagnant again. it bothers me.

looking in the mirror, im starting not to like what i see. i'm gaining a little poundage. that's sucks. looking at my dog, i feel he's going insane. he's been chewing his bed mattress beyond recognition. the stuffing is all over the place. i haven't given him his bath this week yet as well.

i need intervention. this has to end. i need some fuckin motivation.

BOREDOM IS PRODUCTIVE

I am to meet a friend today in a coffee shop. We’re meeting because I promised her some time ago that I would fix her PSP game console and put some games in it. My friend used to work in the coffee shop but got reassigned to some other branch for what reason I don’t know. I got in the coffee shop at around 1 pm. There was really no set time in our meeting. In fact, it was through the baristas in the coffee shop that I learned that my friend wanted to meet me today. Being a frequent patron here, I just thought that my friend would probably show up at my usual time of staying - around 1 pm onwards. I frequent the coffee shop because I find it comfortable doing my review here rather than at home. I am preparing for some exam I have to take this coming October. Yesterday, before I found out that my friend wanted to meet me today, I decided not to do some review. I thought, since I didn’t pass on the weekend doing review which I usually do (weekends = free time), I deserved some time off. That was supposed to be today. Since that wouldn’t go as planned, I just thought I’d hang around instead in the coffee shop. I am here today and she is still not here. I asked the baristas if they were able to talk to my friend and they said she’d be off from her branch at around 5 pm. What the hell, I thought. I have nothing to do. I thought that I’d just do some review but my brain just wouldn't agree that I do so. Ha-ha, maybe my brain conditioned itself that today is supposed to be free time. I thought to myself, I’d just continue with my unfinished game in my PSP. Thinking that, I also remembered that I’ve been trying to finish the game for ages now but to no avail that I just decided not to. I could just not progress. So what am I to do? A bright idea dawned on me, I’d just write a blog. Ha-ha. I have written blogs before scattered throughout the different social networking sites that I have joined in but I’ve been wanting to start a blog in blogspot and do all my blogs therein. Now would be the time to start doing that, hence, this blog entry. Hold on, I thought to myself again. There is no free WIFI connection in the coffee shop. Well, nothing would stop me from this sudden urge to start my new blog so I asked the guard to watch over my stuff in the coffee shop while I go to the nearest telecommunications business center and buy myself a prepaid broadband kit. Ha-ha. Blogspot here I come. While I was installing my brand new prepaid broadband kit, I suddenly realized that I didn’t have to buy a broadband kit just to start a blog. I could just type a blog in Office Word and just upload it later at home. Too late I thought. Now, I am P1895 poorer. Another impulsive buy! Ha-ha-ha. Being the rationalizing type that I am, I’m hell sure to find reasons to justify my purchase so no worries. Right now, what’s going on in my mind is at least I’ll never be limited to just my home internet connection, vast online information is readily accessible. There! Justified. Ha-ha.

REPOST: EHEADS NOSTALGIA

i miss the eheads… after almost 7 years, i just realized i like their music…

"maselang bahaghari, sa aking isipan

wag kang mabahala, di kita malilimutan

paglipas ng ulan, mapapangiti ang araw

wag sanang mawala ang maselang bahaghari"

- eraserheads

REPOST: BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR

hahaha… okay. so there i was, struggling to seek something thrilling to happen with my life and *alas* - something sure did. this is what happens when your life becomes so freakin dull. you tend to gobble on anything *new* that comes along. lol. bad or good? i dunno… i tend to be ambivalent on the matter (or am i just in denial for i know deep down in my subconcious im enjoying it). hahahah. am i being irrational? honestly, i dont think so! im just braving new things. and i quote "everybody does it, its just that nobody talks about it!" rest assured, i know my limitations. life is a slate. you must keep scribbling on it so you make a good story. like i said, life is a lesson. experiences enrich you and make you wiser. so go experience things. *wink*

p.s.

med students, you rock! (although i never expected the *thing* from you guys!) *winks again*